Dear Mama

  Dear Mama,

Last night I had a dream about you.  It was the first one since you died.  In my dream you asked me to buy you some clothes.  I told you that you could wait until payday I would buy you all the clothes you could want.
  Mama,  I have so much I want to say to you.  If you were here I would tell you that I love you with all my heart.  I would tell you that I am sorry that I wasn't a better daughter to you.  You see,  I thought that we had plenty of time to make things right between us but as it turns out we didn't.
  The day before you died,  I had you on my mind to call you.  I told myself that I would call you on the way home.  On my way home I told myself that I would call you when I got home.  When I got home I told myself that I would call you later that night.  Later that night I told myself that it was too late to call you and I would do it in the morning.  But in the morning I got the call that you were gone.  If I could go back to the day before that terrible day I would make sure that I called you.  What I would give now to hear your voice just one more time.
  Mama,  I am so sorry that  I let petty grievances come between us.  I let them rob us of a relationship.  While I know that there is two sides to every story,  I should have been the bigger person and just accepted things instead of shutting myself off from you.  I told myself that I was just protecting myself from unpleasantness.  And I guess that was true,  but all I did was cause you pain. For that I am truly sorry.
  I feel like that I had taken a closer look and interest in your life then maybe you would still be here. I could have helped you or at least got you the help you needed.
  Mama,  I hope and pray that you forgive me.  If you were here I woould ask your forgiveness everyday.  I would also tell you that I love you everyday.

I Love you MAMA,

Audra

I am going to post this because I want people to learn from my mistakes.  DON'T let petty grievances interfere with your relationships.  I learned this lesson in  very cruel way.  Whatever the relationship maybe - mama/daddy-daughter/son,  husband/wife, sister/brother-sister/brother,  the grievance is not worth the regret that comes later.  Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,  so make the most of today and tell the people that you love "I Love You"

Love
Audra