Today, my baby girl turned 21.  It seems like yesterday we were bringing home from the hospital.  Time has just flown by.  Now, she is about to become a mom all on her own.  It just fills my heart to bursting.
  Jessi and I have had a some what tumultuous relationship over the past few years.  Some of that is my fault and I claim it.  My job was and still is being her mother.  That's number one on my list of priorities.  I don't think I failed in that area,  I just don't think I succeeded as well as I could have.  I have never been one to sugar-coat anything when it came to my kids.  I have never (nor will I ever) pretended I was happy with something they have decided just so they can feel good about it.  I'm sorry, I'm just not made that way. Both my kids know this about me and have resigned themselves to that fact..  Jessi has commented on the fact that I am brutally honest.  It's something they can always depend on.
  With that being said,  I will say that our relationship is headed in the right direction.  I feel that we are growing closer.  It was getting better before we found out about Butterbean,  but she has helped and she is not even here yet. I love my daughter and I think that she will make a great mom.  And I can't wait to get Butterbean in my arms.

 I love you Jessalina with all my  heart and more!!!!!